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Of The Ocean

by Epileptic MC

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1.
Elders 03:19
Elders Listen for the elders Elders Watch for the elders Elders Be for the elders Elders See for the elders Elders Know for the elders Elders Wisdom of the ages Turning of lost pages A voice from nothing Burnt history so sacred Nameless faces, a collective Knowledge in phases Scrolls written, protected Antithesis of truth elated Then down on my knees praising Truth raising, egos inflated To my amazement, took ages Saga passed down, restated Replacement of knowing is vacant War on everything, faded statement This system, nothing basic Terror for us all, enslavement Mind bending, acid formed arrangement Elders praised then jaded Fed truth but seen as ancient Messages, found and hated What was ultimately created Why bother if wisdom isn't taken Shared visions not debated A lake now an abyss draining Shared sense of energy conflated I know wise words aren't tainted Spirits of the dead in graves Faith and hope aren't related Nothing from schemes, lies shaded Lines in the dirt drawn and painted Energy from eyes dilated Elders know history is never wasted Elders Listen for the elders Elders Watch for the elders Elders Be for the elders Elders See for the elders Elders Know for the elders Elders Learn from the elders Knowledge so sublime Artifacts left behind Finding truth in death A faded soul lost in time Bathed in energies that rise Voids and chasms to climb Pinnacles bright, light shines Dangerous practices align In the faintest dawn there is sight Measures to be defined Elders, gave us this truth We squandered it then realized Real lies known in eyes In all of us lies some fright Knowing darkness of the night Holding on, wishing it could collide Knowing of knowing not mine Can't lose my position in line Throne cast in shadow behind Messages lost, not my time Rings of Saturn spin on a dime Distant points, a callous design Broken dreams shattered spine Mesmerising pattern, gifted signs Heathens breathing on a climb Voices in the ether survived Wish for hope from the past Elders give language to scribe In deep reaches I'm assigned Knowing because it was defined Elders, find hope for us now and forever Hearing the call, the past is entwined Elders Listen for the elders Elders Watch for the elders Elders Be for the elders Elders See for the elders Elders Know for the elders Elders Learn from the elders
2.
Causation 03:05
Cause and effect In vessels getting wrecked Climates distorted Putting chaos in check Direct hit on targets Moving in regardless Faceless in the breeze The mirage of a lost artist Onslaught of barrages Hardships, fire dances Dead weight gets blasted Death parted, sorrow bartered Cold and callous, I'm sparring Mind state so jarring Evasive maneuvers Skies and oceans get harnessed Fire started Time everlasting Staying still, I departed Wise moments regarded Time everlasting Mortal coil departed Causation, replication Emerging destinations Cause and effect Unknown expectations Choices and decisions In spaces to listen Words get distorted I'm putting spirits in prisms Direct hit on the past Voids so endless and sparse Faceless in this scheme Broken pieces fading fast Timeless corrosion Medicate for exposure Sold down the river Floating away, yet still hoping Cold and callous I'm sparring Mind state, a lush garden Complex movements Valleys and mountains get harnessed Fire started Time everlasting Staying still, I departed Wise moments regarded Time everlasting Mortal coil departed Causation, replication Emerging destinations Cause and effect Unknown expectations Life and death Movement, and breath Travelling to the underworld Pennies on my eyes, facing what's next Putting spaces between spaces Find lights showing stasis Submerged in endless acres Where fierce oceans are breaking Final stages, loose ends of pages Outliers throughout the ages Meant to be remembered For kind gesture and wise statements Cold and callous, I'm sparring Mind state timeless, and hardened Deep memories Lakes and rivers get harnessed Fire started Time everlasting Staying still, I departed Wise moments regarded Time everlasting Mortal coil departed Causation, replication Emerging destinations Cause and effect Unknown expectations
3.
Orbit 03:23
Drifting thoughts rise in ascension Like orbiting planets in a spectrum Giving way to memories not mentioned Places are dreams penned for protection Waves crash and swell in the mind Sending ripples across oceans of time Countless journeys I've seen, fell behind Too much witnessed, still days can be bright Sun on moon casts infinite shadows Where the view was not clear, the path narrow Palm facing upwards, a spiritual tarot These walkways seem strange, and hallowed Asked for a name but gave none to interpret Lay awake under the stars surface Seeking to find ways we could emerge For too long, lived the life of a hermit The life of a hermit For too long, lived the life of a hermit The life of a hermit For too long, lived the life of a hermit The wind through the trees whispers Carelessly, light shines in splinters Cast asunder, into the void An ice frost permeates this feeling of winter Hail storms freeze internal covens The boundaries begin to plummet For so long they stayed covered But for now at least, I'm in the realm of buzzards Swooping down from on high with speed Effortless grace, diving with such ease A spiritual awakening in my grasp Voices telling us we should just be Asked for a name but gave none to believe In the forest, can't see the trees for the leaves I lay awake under the stars surface For too long lived a life that wasn't free Wasn't free Wasn't free Wasn't free Free Droplets of rain that fell a millennia ago Fall through cracks in rocks and flow Into underground rivers and lakes Slowly filling oceanic tributaries as they go Mirroring this process, my mind is liquid Taking memories to a place where they can be lifted Life is like the ocean, it's tumultuous Time is a harsh force it's not infinitely gifted Spiritual awakening in the eyes of the beholder Centuries growing, climates becoming colder This journey is mine alone to finish Atlas bearing the sky in his shoulders Asked for a name and gave none but my own Only with more time could we grow past what's below I lay awake under the stars surface and show For far too long lived a life that went by too slow Too slow Too slow Too slow Too slow Orbit
4.
Energy rushing mind buzzing Lost deep in the current Dazzled by lights, sounds Time to grow and flourish Stars apart burst of colours World's away above us Placement, breath of essence In the mist, we find lovers Rising wind, flowing rain Climbing storms, slowing pain Signs and symbols are the same Rhythms, peace, ashes flames In vessels we ride Cursed history inside Legends were described Mighty elements collide Distance, not speed Compassion not greed A belief system needs Love, hope, and peace Energy rushing, polarity Ambivalence, clarity Darkness of unreality Curses, blessings and sanity A second like an age Better lost than afraid Wise words from a sage Distance lost and gained In the the oldest point in time Found it difficult to say why I couldn't be entwined In oceans, mountains, forests and skies Energy glides in my mind The road traveled behind Metaphors climb As lonely moments decline Aligning rays of light Atmospheric and bright Lessening damage and trauma Find soul patterns in eyes With an astral alignment A feeling, I'm not entitled To anything that's happened Spent too long chasing titles Floating mist, crashing waves Falling snow, rising plains Lost in days, swam in faith Dazzled lights, frozen grace I'm not fazed, I survived Into cold winter I dived Several millennia passed Measure growth, and divide Energy rushing, find focus Empathy isn't hopeless The depths of experience History builds and transposes Composes in a flash Blinding bang and a crash Wise words I listened Knowing everything could be dashed In the oldest point in time Found it difficult saying good-bye I couldn't be entwined Part of trees, streams, deserts and tides
5.
Blue Lotus 03:50
Never knowing when the wind will blow When seas will rise when suns will glow A little flash of energy breathes life And then the seeds can be sown And then the seeds can be sown Blue spaces, filled with stark contrast Contours of the mind at long last Several times into the breach I've parted This continuous revolving montage In goes out and out goes in Patience seems to be fading thin Repeated to the ends of the earth Grenade dropped, pulled the pin Explosive, edges get blurred Truth a mantra getting served Hallow's searched no memory of kin Dark side wanderer, here to observe The motion of it all, in its entirety Sobering moments in sobriety Synapses keeping hope alive It's not seen, no notoriety Never knowing when the wind will blow When seas will rise when suns will glow A little flash of energy breathes life And then the seeds can be sown And then the seeds can be sown In this world, of invasive procedures Dark night falls, I lost features Speaking in monotone monochrome Washed up lost on stone covered beaches The only memory of a blue lotus The optimum position for focus Central to mindscapes is a haze Without that things become hopeless Lost and listless, a man is forgotten A man has no name when truth is uncommon A tale of lost envy and shattered dreams A man gives up, a man becomes solemn Taking away from the frozen components Dangerously close to witnessed omens Knowing to find a sense of something potent It was like it changed, and I was awoken I was awoken I was awoken Never knowing when the wind will blow When seas will rise when suns will glow A little flash of energy breathes life And then the seeds can be sown And then the seeds can be sown Omnipotent, the messages translate Past positions of lost fate Myth and legend coalesce I always knew I could see straight But was blocked by traps of my own beliefs Voiceless always needing to speak What I thought I was, I wasn't The containment of dreams I seek A shell of a man, a husk of an existence Rain falling in sheets I had persistence Travels became the method of motion A man becomes hope and resistance To the world of what was to be challenged Found hunger when before I was famished Found simplicity in complex dynamics Kept alive by hope, not the same old patterns Never knowing when the wind will blow When seas will rise, when sun's will glow A little flash of energy breathes life And then the seeds can be sown And then the seeds can be sown
6.
Raw Data 03:30
Lost in this raw data Evaporated in the vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder Lost in this raw data Moments saved for later Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder Lost in raw data Evaporated in vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder Sorting through this process Raw data composes Structures taking form My own osmosis Temporary components In my mind, explosions Structures deepening While I experience exposure Wanting closure for thoughts Find a way out this living morgue Where my sense of self distorts Facing full strength of force On an unknown course Wild elements don't pause Thrown into the deep end No ceremony on the shore These ideas always abundant Part of how I function Abstract concepts I find difficult to make adjustments When things don't make sense I can't ever try to pretend Can't make any pretence Thats not a useful defense I can't tell tall tales on cue Or say something that isn't true I can only imagine and think Doing so with nothing to prove Raw data, thought stream Sending me way off in a dream Strands of odd figments Putting together these themes Lost in this raw data Evaporated in the vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder Lost in this raw data Moments saved for later Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder Lost in raw data Evaporated in vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder Examining these pieces A life spent building a thesis Understanding pathology Hidden meanings and reasons Never completing chapters New climates and factors Ways to understand experience Tell the real from the actors Wanting distance from thoughts A way out this living morgue The faintest hint of life Grab it before it vanishes and distorts Facing full strength of desire The flames making me perspire Holding on to mirror images A sense of compassion can't retire These ideas are always racing Though my mind, never vacant Part of how I function Abstract concepts make a statement When things don't seem to fit I can't try and persist That's not a useful defense I need to know why something exists I search for answers and questions Second guessing my own intention Wondering if I did the the wrong thing Or if the truth was too hard to mention Raw data, thought stream Sending me way off into a dream Strands of new uncertainty Making sense of these themes Lost in this raw data Evaporated in the vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder Lost in this raw data Moments saved for later Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder In the data A thinly stretched remainder Lost in raw data Evaporated in vapour Boundaries blurring A thinly stretched remainder
7.
Dream Teller 03:07
The telling of dreams Dream teller Nightscapes and scenes Dream teller A picture painted Dream teller Images form in sleep They form in sleep, they form in sleep Dream teller weaving manipulation Mind waves transmission failing Seeking safe havens but fading The only phases born from creating Inward looking, but outwardly facing Meant to be a different situation Strange times, space blinds Forever the world is changing Whatever was could vanish Into thin air, banished The fatal blows from a savage Spray dream ink on this canvas It all unfolds through the night Messages and signals seen bright Dream teller, a nightscape novella Eyes open to futures we fight The telling of dreams Nightscapes and scenes A picture pained Images form in sleep Dream writer in the lost pages Handed down and treated so sacred Trying to find answers from the rubble Digging through all this hatred Plagued by visions and faces Admissions of guilty chambers The struggle to find voices for nothing Time draws out and feels wasted In my own way, I know nothing In others, a little of something Goes such a long way towards desire Burn in the fire, form and function This is everything and it can't exist Moments of pain glimmers of bliss Dream teller a nightscape novella Eyes open to futures we miss The telling of dreams Nightscapes and scenes A picture pained Images form in sleep Dream weaver with endless tales Spaces to become so frail Highlighting the senseless loss Of failings we all try to curtail A symbolic form can be transmitted Into our minds without a limit Boldly going where no one went before Tried once but I never finished Lasts a lifetime in reality a minute The open acres and oceans I visit I long for time in my mind Without it I'd feel lost innit More complex and diverse I yearn to search and learn, Dream teller a nightscape novella Eyes open to futures we burnt The telling of dreams Nightscapes and scenes A picture pained Images form in sleep
8.
Forged in light beams Forever to be Built from old relics Finding vision to see The cartographers lost dream The martyrs faded belief A simple sonnet for loss Never finding relief Etched into spaces we bleed Down on our luck, and our knees Praying for something Stolen in the night like a thief Broken in two a shattered speech Finding truth and being deceived My only knowing is never knowing Oceans crash around me as I sleep Oceans crash around me as I sleep As I sleep Oceans crash around me as I sleep As I sleep Oceans crash around me as I sleep As I sleep Oceans crash around me as I sleep As I sleep, as I sleep Found in lost scenes Depicted in the breach The battle for something Although I've never seen The elders mystical release The watchman's lonely feast A simple sonnet for peace Never finding release Life without such need Or else it was never known to me Etched into spaces we bleed Finding faith never easy as it seems Procured in the dark, moon in a sleeve Finding a wealth of knowledge to greet My only knowing is never knowing Tides rise and fall around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Tides rise and fall around my feet Forgotten in last themes Found in disbelief The messages sent in the ether But never discovered or seen The soothsayers convened The shipbuilders relieved A simple sonnet to preach Never finding release Living in times of savage need In dire struggles to feed Find hope we can imbibe Before loss of life in the seas Profoundly known, suns reprieve Finding something, not going to retreat My only knowing is never knowing The lapping waves guide me to be The lapping waves guide me to be The lapping waves guide me to be They guide me to be The lapping waves guide me to be The lapping waves guide me to be The lapping waves guide me to be They guide me to be To be
9.
Only Always 03:48
Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Only always, only forever Only apart when not together Only everything I found Always secure when tethered The beauty in silence The memories serve as guidance Far from internal tyrants Cast shadows in night spires In the flames of the oldest fires Making it through, to perspire Lifted above to crystal skies Of any love, I can't ever tire This is binding, this is truth This is beauty, this is you Only always, only forever The basic shapes I once knew Carve out patterns in the skies Form meaning, be alive Nothing to be lost only gained Forever always, until the day I die The sense of knowing I rise Like the greatest signs of life Rising like crashing oceans in the tide Been here making meaning to survive And I did it, found strength in my limits I know this is far from being finished Messages in the ether Competing with lost spirits Finding energy in dark moments Composing responses and focus The light of elevation I am empowered Looking for any measure of composure Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Only always, only forever Only lost when not together Only everything I ever witnessed Only love can't be judged or measured The harmony in the distance The shape of internal resistance My way of seeing and knowing Putting up a fight to be different In the remnants, I feel jaded The sentiment now is so faded The flames of the fire have abated I witnessed love, rejuvenated This is form, this is function This is your special something Only always, only forever The feelings rise in abundance Carve out shapes in the galaxy Form meaning, find reality Nothing to be lost, only gained The rewards of life's rich tapestry The sense of knowing I strive In the greatest challenges I find Rising like crashing waves of light Finding energy, knowing the signs And I managed, no malice Speak inwardly, exhale the inner savage Saying goodbyes before the end Messages in fragments do damage Finding meaning in chaotic lives Composing this message I need to design The light of hope I am empowered Looking for the bright side of any sign Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever, always forever Only always, only always Always forever, always forever Always forever
10.
Fatal Flaw 03:59
Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw, exposure Couldn't keep my composure Dark thoughts and feelings Broken doubled over Fatal flaw Fatal flaw in the mechanism Spanner in the works Something feels missing Still the pages turn Sure as day follows night Storms leave things bright I continue to discover Put feelings down when I write The faults I discovered Were never under cover On display and present I'm no different to any other Perhaps too expressive Succumb to pains and pressures I don't write so people can listen But for my own inner message It's been tough, felt removed A toll on my general mood Difficulties prove problematic Hurt I don't know how to remove A sign of the times, so grim Where to end, where to begin Telling this story in these pages Death and loss start to sting And we've been here before Throughout history keeping score Had to keep going onwards Finding it difficult to endure And I feel bored, of this mode Feel like internally I'll corrode Without the contact from the world Fatal flaws, painfully exposed Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal Flaw, exposure Fatal flaw, exposure, Couldn't keep my composure Couldn't keep my composure, Dark thoughts and feelings Dark thoughts and feelings, Broken, doubled over Broken, doubled over. Fatal Flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw in this procedure A glitch in the frame Wishing for temporary amnesia Still the pages remain Sure as day follows night Storms leave things bright I find expression in imagery Put emotion into what I write The faults laying suppressed Given life, new breath Understood with new depth Given meanings I collect Perhaps too expressive I lose the real essence I'm no different to any other Found an internal message It's been tough, felt lost Toll taken, paid the cost The turmoil rose steadily Hurt I don't know how to stop A sign of the times, so bleak When to remove, when to speak Telling this story, so painful Broken lives out of reach In this endless transition Stuck between painful positions Finding it a challenge to tolerate Uncertainty and indecision And I feel tired of this mode Feel like internally I'll corrode Without the energies I need Fatal flaws, painfully exposed Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw Fatal Flaw, exposure Fatal flaw, exposure, Couldn't keep my composure Couldn't keep my composure, Dark thoughts and feelings Dark thoughts and feelings, Broken, doubled over Broken, doubled over. Fatal Flaw Fatal flaw Fatal flaw
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When it falls, there is no more surface Crumbled away into different versions The conditions hotter than a furnace And I don't ever feel furnished With the means to survive this terror So, set forth my own internal measures My mind skips and drifts into space Whilst I await news that could take forever The details of this seem so meta Yet ethereal and light as a feather Looking down on articles from above Into the void I now feel so tethered When it all falls, we fall within When it all falls, we feel the sting Of lies and decay that's been brewing When it all falls, we start to spin As it falls, we see the drop emerging As it falls, inertia keeps us turning As it falls, we inhabit new realms As it falls, we create new versions When it falls, there is nothing solid, no mass No net to fall into, there is nothing to catch The wide world feels small and suddenly flat We fell together, at once, we were dashed There is no guidance, waves crash on solitary islands Closed minds, hearts and eyelids Internal compasses off track and lost Yet we still have those mental tyrants Giving us messages we can't seem to ignore Despite contemplating the hidden metaphors The wise words we seek in that darkness Let us examine the idea of something more When it all falls, we fall in cycles When it all falls, we aren't entitled To truth, messages or any lights When it all falls, we lose our vitals As it falls, we see the drop emerging As it falls, inertia keeps us turning As it falls, we inhabit new realms As it falls, we create new versions When it falls, we see the end of living Glass floors shatter, we float with no rhythm Ghost melodies play in the distance A sign of our demise, we start singing I always felt the end would be more dramatic That it would be louder, more emphatic But, it all fell off without a sound being made There was radio silence, just static Vibrancy and colour seemed to fade All that we once had, has now decayed The lucky ones were left to a elegant hall Like many, I was forced to remain, When it all falls, we drift into spirits When it all falls we defy physics We are elsewhere, something different When it all falls, we finally see we have no limits As it falls, we see the drop emerging As it falls, inertia keeps us turning As it falls, we inhabit new realms As it falls, we create new versions
12.
Leaving in tact with the rhythm I go I never thought that things would just show It was a war torn country, inside my soul Different factions all seeking control But this is proving, much was an illusion I scanned those blueprints, I was human I knew I'd been misusing outgrew them My mind state upwards in this new role Final dawn stretches, in this sentence I know I crave something, not repentance It's kind of tricky, I am not sure I should mention There's a space above, it's like redemption Whenever I've needed to rise and fall I stumbled upon, times I could call I fell, stumbled and sprawled Reset the unknown, to see new halls Leave in tact as I search below No light permeates yet there's growth This is the energies of endless sun's Dispersed in beams, there is a flow Like water rushing to leaves after a flood Like pumping arteries with blood The pursuit of life is abundant Even when you thought there wasn't there is love Calculated on basic trust, we have sight This is moreover, a sense of light Giving no rhythms we know no different What has a bark, doesn't always have a bite So I take what I can from fleeting moments Waking myself up out of these comas In time, I snapped camera lenses Taking care not to feel so hopeless Leave in tact as I bestow A meaning and purpose in this flow The way to describe the feeling Of free falling, yet having a place to go And space to grow, in this dimension Behind the walls cos I felt threatened I haven't needed to stop or give up Even when I felt death start to beckon I didn't let him, I pursued Because the game isn't rigged to lose Climates can wash you away in storms So adapt to conditions, then disprove Be you, what other person can you imagine The fire burns, it can't be dampened Fatalistic casualties of the amalgam War with ourselves, screaming an anthem Scrapping with phantoms, trying to leave in tact Try to not get caught up in the attack On ourselves as not capable No idea too small, or life doesn't impact On others, think we never left a mark No human contact, it would be stark We have powers to help grow energies We left in tact with survivors, no Noah's ark

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The ocean's unknown components, darkness and depth mirror our unconscious mind, where currents, tides and movement beneath the surface exert force or pressure without our knowledge.

Of The Ocean was produced and recorded between 2018 and 2021. All the lyrics were written within view of the vast and unforgiving Atlantic Ocean.

The songs represent the personal, intimate and meaningful connection I have always had to the ocean. This album is an expression of my experience of the ocean as a never ending source of inspiration, curiosity and interest.

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released April 21, 2023

All songs written and produced by Joshua Miles

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Epileptic MC London, UK

Epileptic MC draws inspiration from personal life experiences, and urban and natural environments.

His productions are influenced by Drum & Bass, Garage, Grime & Hip Hop.

Over time, his lyrics have become more expansive, abstract and metaphorical, increasingly influenced by dreams, shared experiences & narratives.

His music moves between themes of hope & light and dark and haunting imagery.
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